Things I can’t tell my Daughter

When Caleb was little he loved to hear the story of the day he was born. He loved looking at pictures of mommy with him still in her tummy and then pictures of mommy and daddy holding a brand new baby in their arms. He loved to hear the story of how he was our miracle baby. He loved hearing about our thoughts, expectations, almost being born on Aunt Katie’s birthday, and his grandparents traveling for hours in order to be for his arrival. 

Madilyn is at the age now where she is starting to ask questions. This has started happening more often since her teacher at school is now showing and the kids all know that “Ms. Kayla, has a baby in her belly.” Since we always tell our children the truth her questions are not hard to answer. It also helps that her questions are simple at this point in time. I am sure that as she gets older her questions will become more complex and harder to answer.  I really wish I could have her snuggle on my lap and tell her about the day she was born. I would love to answer her questions in the same way that I answered her brother, but I can’t.  I would love to show her pictures and tell her about the day that she was born, but I can’t. I would love to show her the medical bracelet from the hospital, but I can’t.  I would love to show her pictures of that day, but I can’t.

While there are things that I can’t tell her, there are so many more things that I can tell her. I can tell her about the day she became a part of our lives. I can tell her how she grew in my heart and that she was very much wanted and loved before we even knew she existed. I can tell her that we prayed for her every day, for years. I can tell her about the phone call, the hurried trip, and meeting her for the first time and falling in love with her before I even held her in my arms. I can tell her about the shock and excitement the entire family experienced at the announcement of her arrival.

Madilyn has her own story and her story is part of what makes her the unique, wonderful child that she is. I am thankful for all of the things I can tell her.

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