Most people don’t know….
It takes awhile for me to get to know others. I often feel awkward when meeting new people. My quietness does not mean I do not want to get to know you. I can get up on a stage in front of 600 high school students and make speech after speech. However, put me on a stage or at the center of a small group and I can hardly get my message across. I usually do not talk a lot when in group settings, its not that I am antisocial, I just try to only talk when I really have something to say.
I am a simple girl with simple taste. I don’t need flashy clothing, jewelry or other material things. I am happy with simplicity.
Often times I lack self-confidence. This comes from being teased in school a lot. I also think this comes from being told by adults that I would never finish college and that I would never be able to be an educator because I did not have what it takes. Even though I have gone through 8 years of college and have earned a Specialist Degree and have been successful in the classroom for 19 years I still struggle to find the self-confidence I often lack.
I am not a laugh out loud kind of person. I may think that I have just seen or heard the funniest thing, but I rarely ever laugh out loud. This puzzles David. We will be watching a movie or something and he will be rolling with laughter and he will look over at me and ask, “don’t you think that that was funny?” I don’t know why but I just have never really been able to laugh out loud.
It does not take much to make me cry. I wear my heart on my sleeve as some would say. What others see as a joke, I often see as making fun of others. Just recently at work another teacher jokingly (so she says) called me “stupid.” I don’t know why but it bothered me and it bothered me for days. I am far from stupid, and prove that everyday. I just found it to be very hurtful and condescending.
You are kind and very generous.
Thank you LaVerne… I do try to be kind and generous.