Most people don’t know

coffeeMost people don’t know….

It takes awhile for me to get to know others. I often feel awkward when meeting new people. My quietness does not mean I do not want to get to know you. I can get up on a stage in front of 600 high school students and make speech after speech. However, put me on a stage or at the center of a small group and I can hardly get my message across. I usually do not talk a lot when in group settings, its not that I am antisocial, I just try to only talk when I really have something to say.

I am a simple girl with simple taste. I don’t need flashy clothing, jewelry or other material things. I am happy with simplicity.

Often times I lack self-confidence. This comes from being teased in school a lot. I also think this comes from being told by adults that I would never finish college and that I would never be able to be an educator because I did not have what it takes. Even though I have gone through 8 years of college and have earned a Specialist Degree and have been successful in the classroom for 19 years I still struggle to find the self-confidence I often lack.

I am not a laugh out loud kind of person. I may think that I have just seen or heard the funniest thing, but I rarely ever laugh out loud. This puzzles David. We will be watching a movie or something and he will be rolling with laughter and he will look over at me and ask,  “don’t you think that that was funny?”  I don’t know why but I just have never really been able to laugh out loud.

It does not take much to make me cry. I wear my heart on my sleeve as some would say. What others see as a joke, I often see as making fun of others. Just recently at work another teacher jokingly (so she says) called me “stupid.”  I don’t know why but it bothered me and it bothered me for days. I am far from stupid, and prove that everyday. I just found it to be very hurtful and condescending.

I do not like change. I like things to stay the same. While others see this as boring, I see it as safe. Change especially unexpected change is scary for me. I prefer to stay within my comfort zone.
This is me being real. Back in November I stated that I would not be covering up my feelings anymore on this blog, and in many post I have let my emotions show. I have a hard time with doing that but sometimes it just needs to be done.
What are some things people do not know about you?

2 Responses to “Most people don’t know”

  1. LaVerne Ombadykow says:

    You are kind and very generous.

  2. Donna says:

    Thank you LaVerne… I do try to be kind and generous.