I’m tired

taniobeach2“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” Matthew 11:28

I have been so tired the past few weeks. Fighting off illness, and it being my busy time at work has really taken a toll on my mind, body, and spirit. Even though I am weary I find rest in the verse above. I am so glad that even when I feel like I can not think or do one more task that God promises to give us rest when we turn to him. I think this is one of the best promises that is written in God’s word.

Lately I just can not keep up with anything. Earlier this week I forgot to post my grades. I thought I am all caught up I have a minute to breathe. Then at 3:30 an announcement came over the intercom that said, “Teachers if you have not already posted grades you must do so by 4:30 today.” I almost cried, how could I have forgotten something that was so important. Most teachers have 1 posting to do per class period. Due to the nature of my class I have to post 45 times. The process takes 6 clicks per class in the grade book. I get physically sick at this repetitive task. I had no choice but to start the process. I was tired and frustrated, but the verse above came to mind and brought me some peace.

I feel like my house is a mess. It is what I call surface clean. If you came for a visit you would not notice the dust on the baseboards. You would not notice that the floors have not been mopped in a while.  You would not notice that the sink does not shine as bright as it could. I however notice these things. At times I feel like I am failing at this working mom gig. I am barely getting the work part done, and am totally failing at the home parts. Some nights it takes all I can do to put dinner on the table. I console myself with the fact that I do push through and get a healthy meal on the table every night. I also know that my family does not really care if the entire house is clean all of the time. Some things are more important than a spotless house.

When my alarm goes off at 5:00 I am so tempted to just go back to sleep. However, I know that if I do not get up and complete my devotional time and pray it will not get done. Most people would say I need to just sleep this extra hour. I say God will get me through this because I am showing honor to him by starting my day in prayer, mediation, and the study of his word.  This time in the morning is my most peaceful restful time of the day.

Spring Break is in just a few days. so looking forward to a little rest next week.

 Photo- By David. One of my favorite places on earth-Tanio Beach Freeport Bahamas.


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