Happy Birthday David- I’m a horrible wife=(

Happy Birthday David-

David turned 40 today. For his birthday I had a meltdown. I have been trying so hard to be strong and not be emotional during the past several days.

I had been symptom free since my surgery. Well about 4 days ago most of my pre-surgery symptoms returned. I once again experiencing nausea most of the day, I have horrible pelvic pain and I just want to scratch all of the skin off of my body. I have been miserable for days and I have had enough. Actually I have been miserable for months, and I am just fed up with it. I am really having a hard time with all of this. Why can I just not get better and stay better. Why do I have to continue to suffer? What good can come out of all of this?

I feel like a horrible wife, because I had a meltdown on David’s birthday. It was to be his day, and all I could do was cry and be upset about what is going on with me. Of course, I think that anyone else who has had these symptoms for 6 months would be just as likely to melt down once in a while. I am to the point of wanting to just crawl in bed and never get up again. When can I be normal again? Why in the world did this surgery NOT work for me? Why did I have to be the 1 in 4 that it does not work on? This really sucks. But what sucks more is that I could not wait a few days to have a meltdown.

One Response to “Happy Birthday David- I’m a horrible wife=(”

  1. Jenn Wagner says:

    Hey we talked about this. However wanted to offer my Ear (to yell into), Hand (To Hold) & Heart – Just Call.