I have not blogged since early July. I have had a lot on my mind and I do have a lot to say. The problem is I don’t know how to say the things that I want to say or that need to be said.
The truth is I don’t want to say the things that are heavy on my mind because I do not want to hurt anyone with my words. Sometimes I wonder why I care so much about hurting others when they obviously don’t care about hurting my feelings or the feelings of my family.
My life is changing a little and I hate change. Sometimes change can be good. Change is almost always a challenge. I don’t really know if I am up for a challenge right now in this moment in time. All I can do is embrace the change and pray for God to work it all out.
I know that this post is a little criptic…. just know that I am fine, David is fine and the kids are great. However, I have been deeply hurt by some I thought were my friends and it will take time to recover and regroup.