Lately I am having issues seeing myself thinner. When I look in the mirror a 24w looks the same as a 14/16. I don’t know why I am having this issue I just know that I am. Deep down in the recesses of my mind I know that I look a lot thinner than I did a few months ago.
I know a lot of it has to do with self image and the disappointment I have in myself for not being disciplined and allowing my size to get so out of control. I also know a lot of it has to do with publications I see on the news stand. A few weeks ago on the cover of a magazine there was a picture of an overweight singer and next to the the over weight photo was a great picture saying “now 30 lbs lighter.” All I could think was, “man I lost over 60 pounds and you can’t even tell, she lost 30 and looks like a totally different person.”
Well I had to get real and remember the wonderful tool called photo-shop. I am sure that singer was NEVER as big as the overweight picture portrayed. They photo shopped fat on the girl. I am also sure that she is also not really as skinny as they show her now because they have photo-shopped every inch of her body. Media today is doing a disservice to girls and women, by publishing edited images. We need to reprogram our minds to realize that its not about how we look, but how healthy we are. My mirror is not lying to me my mind is, I just need to figure out a way to remove the lie from my mind.
As I move forward I am staying focused on how I feel not how I look. I am also very aware of what I say and do in front of my beautiful daughter. I don’t want her to grow up thinking that she has to meet the unachievable standards that are promoted by the fashion industry.
Tags: body image, wieght loss